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randomness and a few intruiging thoughts
current location: Home, finally
current mood: quixotic
current song: The Hot Gates, pimping killer music
I have been told by many people that i should not write things for public consumption when i havent slept in a while or just gotten home from work. Well good morning motherfuckers, THIS IS SPARTA. im going to be keeping myself awake today by watching AvP2, 300, Gladiator and the dark knight in a rotating cycle. either i will stay awake, fall asleep or my eyeballs will rape my monitor and kick in a well.
I have had an interesting week, pretty fucking depressed for the most of it. Been feeling alone and isolated and i dont like it one bit. Probably made worse by my sleep seemingly worse then ever which IS FUCKING IRRITATING GIVEN I JUST HAD F
As usual at work and for those who dont know i work night shift at safeway, my mind finds ways to occupy itself as i do something a trained monkey on smack could do, and considering the IQ of some of my co-workers, that might be the case. Last night i amused myself by thinking that old thought what would i do if i could take my experiences now and relive my childhood. Make some better decisions, do things differently. I then got to thinking about the myriad paths that we take in life, those tiny flaps of a butterflies wings that shunt us into a choice one way or another. Paradixicaly if i could go back in time and do things differently i would not have the friends i do today. I remember when i first went to high school and was sitting in the hall and my mum said "Go sit next to that boy, hes tall as well" sounds strange but Hamish remains one of my best friends to this day, nearly 2 decades later. Blessed with foresight and knowledge as a child i would most likely be bumped ahead and that lead to the terrifying realization that if i had come to monash a scant few years earlier i would have been a first year with Ken!!! This fun fact then proceeded to provide me with endless amusement as how to tell him the nicest way he was going to loose his hair. DELIGHTFUL!
Moving on from this i tried to follow out some of the paths my life might have taken, what would have happened if i had have asked out my high school crush? Actually tried to like my school instead of fighting against it every step of the way. Would i have gotten expelled for sure as shit my confidense now is better then it was then and there are several kids who wouldnt have walked home. There was a bit of a moral quandry as to how much do you say? What kind of crazy spinoff world would happen if you averted or propogated disasters. Maybe S11 HAD to happed for some bizare reason, maybe to make us a more prepared nation if something bad happens like an invasion from aliens or interdimensional orcs.
And then i had this long discussion with myself. Im reading a book at the moment called "The great war for civilization: The conquest of the middle east" by a reporter called Robert Fisk. Very very fascinating book. Talks a lot about the soviet invasion of Afghanistan and Bin Ladens creation of the Mujaheddin with arabs brought from all over east asia. A final point then i will shut up form my quixotic ramblings. What was considered the developing world is now vying for positions within the western world. China, India amongst others, but there remains a good part of the world in the middle east and east europe that is still getting a major assfucking and i realized that these places are made up of fierce populations who have time and again fought oppressors and liberators and sometimes won! It will only take two things, two signs as it were and I'm fucking getting off this rock before a very very scary future comes to pass.
First an asteroid impacts near Rome in Italy.
Secondly there is this news report; "...and the terrorist bombings in UN holdings in Serbia and Bosnia have shocked the world with their ferocity, no group has yet claimed responsibility for the attack though the whisperings of a new leader bringing together various terrorist factions, known only as Kane..."
and BAM I'm gone
